STRESS LEVEL vs TOLERANCE LEVEL

TEST TEST TEST AND TEST is the only few words i would like and most appropriate way to describe what is going to happened to me WHOLE OF NEXT WEEK.......!!! :(

Consequences of this TEST TEST TEST is STRESS....!!! I can say that my stress level is at a PEEK. In business and economics we always see this term business cycle, there will be a peek/ boom time where very thing is at the highest point and also a tough point where it is the lowest point of the trade cycle. My stress level right now is at the -- PEEK......!!!

And if STRESS LEVEL is on the y-axis and relate it to my TOLERANCE LEVEL on the x-axis, i can tell you that this 2 variable will have a DOWNWARDS SLOPPING linear curve. Which also mean that my TOLERANCE LEVEL for nonsense is at the lowest point...!!! Thus, conclusion is that people this week no nonsense with Ying or else u will get a taste of the devil Ying treatment aka DIE...!!!

Ermp... I am so an economics student or I just study too much economics for the past 2 days (I got 13 topics to read for this whole weekend)...!!! O.o
Cant believe I actually use graph and some slope to describe my STRESS LEVEL N TOLERANCE LEVEL ^^ *speechless*


~ying need to go back study~

I LOVE FRIDAY........!!! (FINALLY)

FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY......... IS FRIDAY.....!!! I AM GOING TO END MY DISASTER WEEK SOOOOONNN.....!!!

What a week i should say :(
Everyday need to get up at 7am in order to come to college at 8am. Then have class and only get to go home in the late evening maybe like 6pm?! O.o
My Monday and Tuesday was even better classes starts at 9am to 5.30pm and best part of all is that is non-stop and no break at all in between :( and I dont get 2 days off which i usually do for this semester...!!!

I somehow like this Visiting Lecturer timetable (for 2 subjects) where got no clashes with rest of my classes and so i dont need to skip or forgone any other classes. But in return you will "feel good" where you have extra 8 hours of class and no reason for you to skip classes.......!!!

Seriously right now if i were to faint down and the next thing I know when I wake up is that I end up in a bed or in the hospital or anywhere, I wont be surprise. Because I feel really headache and tired and my eye very sore :(

This week my average sleep for 5 days down the road is only 5.5hours a night :( which normally i take 8 hours of sleep everyday :(

This week seriously thanks to Nic in class. He has been so productive in terms of writing notes down. Trust me you need that skills and amount of concentration to do it when you have a crazy lecturer which keep telling good and nice information in class (sadly i see him for 2 subjects aka 4 hours a day). Only thing I tell him in class is "Thanks Nic" then i starts to draw silly stuff in class and try my level best to copy n listen what he say to minimise my waste of time for coming to class :(

Also, Clem for being understanding and keep nag me to sleep :P but he is doing a right thing. Where seriously I really need enough sleep to concentrate in class :(


~ying needs sleep~

I WANT TO BE ALONE......!!!

Tonight I realised something, give up is not the scariest or saddest action or worse feeling u can feel in your life.

Give up doesn't mean anything to me anymore. If you think I have some ultimate strong fighting spirit or I decided to push myself all the way till the end until i reach my mission..... I can tell you the answer is NO NO NO NO.....!!!! Sadly the answer is NO...!!! I don't have any fighting spirit in me now...!!! Seriously......

That is because I don't even know how a give up feelings should feel like... should I give up waiting... should I to continue with my what so ever spirit... I really don't know what word should I use to describe my feeling right now... Izzit miserable?! Izzit sad?! Or some economic term diseconomy of scale?!

I don't know....!!! I really don't know....!!! =.=

I am physically, mentally and even emotionally exhausted.... :( Cant think properly and rationally anymore...!!!

ONLY THING I KNOW NOW IS THAT "I WANT TO BE ALONE......!!!"

~tired ying~

Going to "LOVE" my BLACK TUESDAY

Great........!!!!

I think even the God pity me and crying for my long miserable class from 9am to 5.30pm. I am talking about non-stop and no break in between classes...!!! :(

How would I wish right now I am still sleeping inside my bed and not going to sit in some class which going to kick start my miserable day :(

And due to the rain, I experienced the massive traffic-jam which is so common and popular in Malaysia every morning and it get worse when it rain....!!!


~ying going to "love" her day~

Dont Judge A Book By It's Cover :P

Recently there is one new advertisement that catch my attention. Is the yellow phone operator MSN on mobile advertisement. The boy is going on a blind date. So he asked around and get some suggestions. So one of his guy friend said that "buy some flower" and then after while another girl said "not forget choco n candy" (cant really remember the exact word but something like this) So you see that guy holding flowers and a heart shape choco candy box and then he bump into a tall ugly and fat women who happen to be his blind date. She was so excited to meet that boy and she yelled "are you Danny boy...?! Danny boy..........!!!" she's delight to see him (assume his name is Danny :P) but "Danny boy" frighten by that girl's appearance I think (very high chance) and he ran away as fast as possible. That poor girl picked the flower and choco box dropped by Danny boy and chase after him with the "please wait for me" gesture... Then the advertisement end...!!!

The thing is that why guys (i say girl too :P) always judge a girl appearance?! I am not saying that appearance is not important as i also like pretty stuff and Nic and some of us actually discuss before that if anyone tell us that appearance doesn't matter i can tell u that person is lying...!!! The most important thing is what you do after that... After u say "that girl or boy is ugly" in your heart, will you actually continue be friend with her and talk to her?! Or you will just ignore and run away like Danny boy?!"

If u actually make friend with the ugly person that u meet and then treat her/him like your friend then u can say that "looks doesn't matter".

Why do i actually say that because I think someone did that to me before when i was young, when i first started to use chat room and make friends. Someone actually did something like this to me before indirectly but i can feel it...!!! In the first place itself he is not good looking either and why on earth he is judging me?! I didn't even say "Gosh...this guy is so ugly" in my heart...!!! Only different between me and that advertisement is that i am not fat and i wasn't on a date in the first place.

He himself just came to my school and looked for me. He did say "hi" to me and then walked off and after that day onwards we didn't talk to each other till one fine day he saw me again in college hang out area. He saw me and wasn't sure if is me so he called me after awhile and asked about it...!!! Pathetic bustard...!!! My heart was like thinking "how can i forget u this UGLY HEARTED fella......?!"

~ying dont like ppl judge a book by it's cover~

...MSN....

Okay i got no idea why my MSN is not working tonight......!!!

Think will just give up and go sleep since is 4am already (but i dont feel sleep?!) O.o

Think will just Miss talking to Clem......


~MSN....!!!~

My 2009 mid-term Holiday...

My mid term holiday is coming to an end... I think i did a lot in terms of study and also fun and in the same time get lots of sleep as well :P

Hahaha....been having like 9hours of sleep everyday and is so nice to be able to get up and not worry about time and can just lazy around on the bed till u satisfied only get up and brush your teeth and go down have late breakfast and lunch :P

Then go download some shows and then Facebook and also read newspaper. Then in the evening watch TV and MSN.

At night after dinner, start to read, catch up and get all the question marks topic clear up. Actually I study the whole topic all over again so i get a better picture about the whole god damn it topic...!!! After that just to make sure i fully understand it, i will just do the questions inside the course guide. Oh well...technically i have cover all the 4 topics for Business Finance which is going to be tested soon and hope i truly understand everything ^^

But i am still clueless about International Monetary Economics because i fall asleep twice for reading that book twice...!!!

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Also, is so nice get to chat with Jian Han which now in Aussie, who started is 4th week of class on MSN on Thursdat night.

Hahhaha...he told me he speaks more mandrine and cantonese in Australia more than he does in Malaysia. Reason behind it is all his friends around him that he hang out with are from China or Hong Kong. *sad for him*

Also complain that he cant find anyone to company him to study because no one care about study when there are tonnes of parties and bars all around and all is within his area :P
(I know u reading, JIAN HAN IS A PARTY ANIMAL......!!!)

Oh well~~ God bless him ^^


~ying think she going to sleep~
Bonne nuit (Good Night)

My Dreams.......

Okay this few days... maybe i should change it to this few nights, I think I have really good night of sleep as I dream and I remember what i dream after i wake up.

On Tuesday night, my dream was really weird (according to Clem :P) and seriously i think the ending of the dream confirm 100% is me, Ying...!!! Okay it started of like this, i woke up because it was heavy rain outside and i think the thunder wake me up. Since i sleep at one side of the bed which is my face facing the left side of the wall. Guess what, my wall have some sort of bubble and it looks watery. So i touch it and yes indeed, the water flow like as if it is some wall decoration waterfall kinda thing. I got scare so i looked at my sister which sleeping soundly and i realised all the 4 walls of my room have the same "effect"......!!! So i wonder and ponder awhile and then I CONTINUE SLEEP...!!! *swt*

What the hell man?! How can I actually SLEEP?!
Only reason make me dream of water and rain could be the amount of rain we get from the past 2 weeks...!!!

Next is yesterday night's (Thursday) dream. This is a scary one... I think is more like a nightmare than dream. I couldn't remember what izzit all about but is about ghxxt...!!! (I dare not say as i am downstairs all alone and is late already :P) I think i was kidnap by them and something...!!! I got disturb and wake up feeling scare and mind keep having some ugly and scare faces flashing in my mind and it took me awhile to get back to sleep.

Gosh... I swear next week I wont watch the NTV7's 9pm show anymore. Is horrible and even now for me to type this out, I feel SCARE......!!!

Hope tonight i have a good night sleep and hope is a sweet and nice pleasent one....!!! Some country side view, with a relaxing mood......etc.


~ying hope for sweet dreams~

Lead me miss France........

On the Saturday me and Nic worked at KLCC for FACON education fair. So gather with him and Alain in college and then we head to KLCC at 10am. It was fun and yet tiring because need to wear high heels whole day and have to stand to give out broaches.

Anyway that is not the best part, the best part is when almost the end, Alain and Jayson (counselor for marketing department) they ask both of us act like we are some student which curious about their courses and fee aka to be spy :P (i love doing it but talking and act innocent and tell lie it feel suck...!!!) The best thing about Nic say is "Hi, i am an Alevel student...." what the hell man...!!! He is not an Alevel student :P he is from SAM and i started to laugh with him once we are away from KDU College.

Back to the topic of why and how and what make me have that sudden feeling of "I miss France" is when i sneak out from work for while to explore myself around :P Then i found something which say "Alliances Francaises" poster and it state there Malaisie which sounded French to me and so decided to check it out and found out that is an official French language center which under the Ambassade de France en Malaisie.

That indian dude standing over there promoting the institution asked me a couple of question and he asked me to introduce myself in French. So i tired it with a real broken French and i tell u......!!! *hilarious* Of cause before i go say bye in French to him and a French lady who i assume worked in the language center. I can tell u now I am glad that I study my French one night before the exam when I am in France and thank god Clem aka our one night French teacher helped us...!!! Or else i don't think i dare to tell that guy that i just back from a France Study Tour :P

A la tienne!!! (cheers!!!)
(Ying's French Private Limited)

I hate it.......!!!

I feel really sleepy n tired right now but due to the menstrual pain i couldn't sleep cause the pain is so annoying...!!!

How would I wish can have some pamper right now... Like "dear...is so painful :(" *with some pitiful face* maybe in return can get some sayang or petting ^^ That will be a nice and effective manja treatment which may cure my pain temporarily :P

Anyway, will try to sleep now since tonight not going to online and i dont feel like study and some more tomorrow got Business Finance visiting lecturer. His class must go because he was the one who evaluate my business presentation this evening in Room 2.1.

Alright, that's all for tonight.


~ying wish to be pamper~

FINALLY DONE.....

FINALLY.... i am done with all my study tour work from business report to reflective journal and business presentation.

So finally can concentrate on my studies, which is only the 4 main subjects which i am going to sit for test and exam ^^
Have to start to study and do lots and lots of revision already... Study tour work really take out a lot of my time and is really stressful in terms of the amount of things that u need to read n do research and come out with attractive recommendation.

Finally... I officially done with all the France stuff and i dont need to Google and read things like "France Labour Law" and all the really boring stuff. Before i go for this tour all the work n assessment it looks really easy n it doesnt seem hard till i experiences it :(

Anyway, really need to focus on this sem major and also next week is holiday. So i think I should make full use of my one week of holiday with minimum nonsense...!!! *come on ying...!!!*

Alright, that's all... I am really happy and also happy about Micheal Gangemi comment that our presentation is good and he like it. Only thing he question us is that "He know Disneyland in Paris is not doing good and why we think of getting Genting into France or Germany?"

Oh well.... Is just a purposal... :P


~ying want to be a PIGGY~
(Go sleep.... :P)

FOOD FOOD FOOD n FOOD

this is nice.... is a must to grab if i go back to my dad's hometown, Johor

all this dessert is so yummy, this is a new shop in ss15 (near my college) it called SnowFlake. the ower is from taiwan and all his ingredient is organic (that is what is stated in the huge poster on the wall and promoted by the pormoter). will tell u which is the best dessert....
this is one special and is my favourite - soya ice kacang, the ice (white thing) is made out of soya bean (my favourite drinks) and it is so nicely blended (so smooth) and it mix with red bean and some cincao which u can see on the side of the bowl.... FABOULAS...!!!
this one was so so.... i only like the orange and yellowish-brown rice ball on top of the cincao flavoured ice. apparently, both rice ball is made out of some organic thing which i didnt get what izzit.... and trust me is great as well....
hmmm.... this one i dont really like it. 1st of all i dont like "tou fu far" only like the bubble tea ball inside the dessert. (i forgotten to take my own drinks :( which is also another nice good drink. it is called the lime honey juices which tasted really special and is not like the typical lime juice we get in those hacker stall.... LOVE IT...!!!
hmmm....some self-made rice ball on the 15th day of Chinese New Year... this represent "UNITED" i suppose that is what it means O.o

Normally u find it should be round (sphere to be correct), not in LOVE shape... Me and my little sis did it for fun and everyone in the family get 2 hearts each...
GOSH....... this is the best STAY i have ever taste before and is less fat...!!! but is a little pricey as compare to the normal stay we get in the mamak stall. This shop is some where in PJ (people nomally call that place "the State") where across this shop u get another famous shop which sell really good duck rice (during weekend is normally full)....
hmmm....I love this one as well... is called the "tong ku man mian" aka steamed mushroom mee (i think that is how u translate). this was my dinner when i accompany my mum to bring my see for some chinese tradisional doctor in Taman Mega... (LOVE IT AS WELL...!!!)
This one is really special.... is called the "salted egg tou fu"

Apparently this restaurant, the hire some cheif from Kuang Zhou, China to cook all the dishes in the menu. But is very very expensive, me and Adrian got shock of our life when we pay the bill in the end of the day......!!! (In the menu, u dont see prices stated anywhere :P)

this one is also very very nice.... is from the same shop called "Guan Di" which located in Kota Damansara. I forgotten what name is this but same comment is nice but is super expensive...!!!

there is this another dishes called the "salted egg pastry with duck meat" also tested really nice and also super special, why i say special because i dont think u can get it anywhere unless u get urslef into that shop and u cant find a word that can actually describe the taste of the whole duck dish... (technically i dont know the duck dish is nice or special....) o.O

Thus, now u know why i so worry about me getting fat?!

I am like so hungry ghost after u back from France. Guess what all this pictures is only like what less than 5% of the good and nice foods that i have been eating.

And during CNY, i went to a few dinner and some gathering lunch as well...

So ying's dictionary is only FOOD FOOD FOOD and FOOD...!!! *speechless*

~ying trying to slim down~

Awww~~~ Is so accurate...!!!

Gosh.... This is seriously interesting and is extremely accurate my dear friends...!!!
If you want the same Email just let me know... I will be so glad to share it with you....

I love to read horoscope but sometimes i don't find it like 100% accurate... But this one... It really surprise me and I am impressed....


魔羯座

年轻的魔羯都是很单纯的，我想他们也不会知道自己将从天使变成恶魔，魔羯座的人天生善良，感情也都很脆弱，也许会因为一些很小的事情难过很长时间，所以他们通常在表面表现的酷酷的与事隔离的样子，其实他们只是不希望让别人看到他脆弱的一面，坚强，理智，承受是魔羯的代名词，他们并不是很随便的表达自己所想，他们希望了解身边所有人的性格，并不是因为好奇，好象只是因为一种安全感，为了保护自己魔羯生出了一种特殊能力。

魔羯相对任何星座来比能在最段时间看出一个人的性格无论他们在如何隐藏，这点很像天蝎但是他们却看不出对方的心，他们很容易就会了解到他们身边每一个人的优缺点，但是他们通常不会说出来，也不会太介意，所有的魔羯都很包容对方请记得，如果有一只魔羯指出你的缺点那一定是友善的，虽然他们会用一种讽刺的口气来指出. 　　

朋友（最喜欢装傻的星座）

魔羯的人都很没有安全感，他们喜欢在任何人面前装傻，这可不是一般的装傻能力，魔羯人聪明就在于这点，他们认为只有傻子在会不牵扯到任何伤害，与其做一个聪明的人不如当一个傻子平凡而又随意，如果不是值得魔羯相信的朋友魔羯永远不会让对方知道自己会有智慧，而无论安全与不安全魔羯对朋友都很真，他们很珍惜些朋友.　　

他们最希望获得朋友的信任，如果从一个朋友那里得不到信任，他不会再与这个朋友交往下去．和魔羯接触过的人都会认为他们脾气很好，好的似乎发傻，其实他们并不是脾气好，只是他们很会装，因为他们了解身边的朋友的所有性格，所以他们在包容对方，就算你做了什么过分的事，他们也早就想考虑好如果对方为什么会这样做，最明显一点，你们可以去看看身边魔羯的朋友，无论你怎么做那些魔羯都不会很惊讶的，其实他们已经知道你为什么会这样了．魔羯的交友观也很随便，他们可能会和贵族很好，也可能会和乞丐聊天，一切的一切只是心灵的交往，很少有魔羯会有势力眼，除非你这个人品太差了。

感情（超级白痴)

魔羯的人傻的可以，他们并不了解爱情，但是他们只知道爱的感觉，对于他们任何感情的表达都是一种感觉，他们很认真的感受每一个感觉，大部分感觉都可以一个人去感觉，最失败的爱却要两个人，傻傻的魔羯一开始会认为，爱你是我自己的事情和你没关系，可是到后来越来越感觉不是滋味，于是开始对对方表白，表白成功后却不知道如何走下一步，也许是太不浪漫在作祟，魔羯的人可能会拿任何事情开玩笑，但是在爱情方面只要他说出'我爱你'或者话题谈到将来结婚，那么他绝对不是在开玩笑，魔羯很物质，但是这点和金牛处女不一样，他们的物质表现在爱上，他们认为给所爱的人带来无限的物质的就是最大的幸福，因为他们很自卑，唯一能用自己努力获得来的就只有物质了。

当自己努力的去让自己所爱的人幸福的时候，自己所爱的人却因为其他的其他离开了他，而到最后自己却不明白自己到底做错了什么，真是可怜的家伙们．


~ying just love this Email~
(Thank you JenZi)