Meaningful (Must Read)

In life,

you learn something from every turning point,

you learn about forgiving when feeling helpless,

contributing when taking up burdens,

giving way when being adamant and stay resilient when facing obstacles,

so stay strong.

This is very meaningful and would like to say this who is facing any down turn in their life right now... THIS IS FOR YOU WHO ARE WEAK NOW...!!!

sigh emo night feeling

this is what i feel last week... that's why i couldn't sleep and then since i lazy wanna go online and blog i just type it into my phone n now i am gonna blog it.

Hmmm...tonight have no idea why suddenly i felt so empty. Even i try to put full concentration on something which i care the most right now in life -- study, but i still cant focus.

Normally when i am sad, anything bad happened to me and i dun wanna think about it i will throw all the nonsense behind and start to be a geek.

Sigh...but tonight have no idea whats wrong, whole time reading nothing gets into my mind, and then all my emo feeling get worse as second fly. (i think since noon i am a little emo already) My brain starts showing some past relation scenery like tape in the cinema and my chair has glue. i cant stop it or either walk away and not see it. Try to pause it, preferably stop completely.

i am flipping my economic book and the feeling of getting into relation gets stronger as i flip more pages. Try to put on my earphone and listen to music so it may disturb my emotion and bring me back to study for econ.

but guess what even the songs that are playing in my list is like emo and the moment i sing the lyric, all the words i sing it hit directly into my heart and gosh...

who can come n chill me up...!!!

i need a comfortable shoulder baby...!!!

gosh...even when i break up i dun feel as sad as emo as that night... think back i been single almost 1 year and 3 months already. what is holding me back?! is my confident towards guys?! for the past one year i been active in Rotract events, meeting lot new ppl, have lots of fun moments. but to flirt and hook up with any guys or even get in to relation have not come accross my mind n it is not even my motive to attend all this event. no doubt i been saying who is cute, who have good and fit figure but it never been my aim to go after or continue to find out more about him.

i have lots of questions....

will my emo continue?!

will my motive changed?!

will i give any guys a chance?!

will i continue be "too" or "over" rational when judging a guy?!

will i............!!!

it is hard for me now to invest even a single 1% of feelings on a guy. Is hard for a guy heart at this age stay for a gal for long and frankly say i dare not guarantee i will be faithful also. but what can i say is that chances of a gal switch feeling is much much much lower than guy.

is realtion worth my time?!

will long distance relation this magical story worth?! (i know it wont work)

so many questions with negative answers which me myself can give u the answers fear me and telling me not to invest in this sector of business which you cant even find an insurance to cover your lost.

sigh...

Pictures (cousin's wedding)

okay... this is my promise to all of u guys out here.

i uploaded my cousin wedding (14th april 2008) pictures today since i come back early and this is the only time i think i might be free cause after this i will need to be "geek" and start to prepare for my finals already... sigh...!!!

anyway enjoy my pictures ^.^

peichan's wedding

District Rotract Assembly (DRA)

DRA

this is some of the pictures i took during District Rotract Assembly (DRA)

it held in Sri Cempaka hotel in KL and the objectives is to train the club and district ex-co from term 08/09.

glad that meet lots of old frineds and some new people too.

Rotract Club of Penang City is the host of the event and Co-Host is my club Rotract Club of Subang. ^.^ *yay*

also glad to hear that participant are delight and really have fun in this assembly. thanks everyone.

My Week13 Test and Assignment

Not sure when was the last time i update my blog but today finally i done with all my classes for this semester already. Opps...no no should say friday got another 2 more hours then i can say bye to my 1st semester ad... (wah...!!! time fly)

this blog i am gonna talk about my week 13 in the college.

on wednesday, 23th april, at 8.30am is my macroeconomic paper. as usual i get up at 7am and left house at around 7.40am. dunno what on earth happened...!!!! the road is like god damn jam~~~~ okay...at first i sort of relax cause since the paper is at 8.30am i got like 50 minutes to waste...

but guess what my house so near to college and at 8.25am i am actually still stuck at the bridge and still about half a kilometers to my college. i look at my watch and start to panic a bit ad... okay traffic turn green my heart say nvm is moving ad...

mana tahu....!!!! it turn red n my dad's car still kinda far from the traffic light. F**K....!!! okay... so no choice i say "dad i will walk fr0m here". straight away i jump down from the car n walk as fast as possible to my college direction.

Gosh...can you believed it or not when i reach college some of the car only move half of what i have walk...!!! my heart was like thank god i walk... i reach at 8.34am i think. still not that bad. one gal she walk in 15 minutes after the paper starts. but seem like Ms Winnie very kind n gave her 5 minutes extra.

okay come back to the paper, i think it was a not hard paper. is pretty direct and the moment i finish the paper i look up n i only took 10minutes for the whole paper. Wah...!!! i look around see ppl still doing my heart started to worry "is my problem or they having problem with the paper" i wonder...

anyway hopefully it is good la... after the paper we all had class and at 11am we finish ad...

this is something i wanna mention. i never see my class guys so hardworking b4, because after class they all actually say wanna go computer lab n start to do computing assignment. *lol* *suprise suprise*

okay...i so "kia su" i also follow them stay back and act hardworking also. hehe... we didnt like till about 2pm and then i follow waikit's car to a mamak near my house and then got back home at 5pm.

so for the whole wednesday and thursday i been working with my assig excess database and on friday i am almost done expect with the report which explain all my assig problem statement, enhancement, database detail and conclusion. so consider pretty much done.

hehe...this is the bag i brought after class. there is a indian lady who come to our college n sell it.

Sad Case (In computer lab)

haiz... been busy with my last assignment before my semester end. this week is week 14, aka my last week of lecturer and tutor. but subject like account and computing already ended last week itself.

ending of computing classes means the disaster of computing assignment began....!!!! *teng teng teng teng.....!!!!!* is also aka as NEW PHASE IN LIFE....!!!

so now i am sitting in computer lab doing it and i skip my economy last tutorial class which starts at 8am till 10am. even thou i only left back some excess data to print and write out report but all this shit is so tedious and boring. so i am now multi-tasking between important stuff and entertainment like facebook and chatter box and games in the computer and of cause blogging lo... *lol*

i think if i didnt go for the District Rotract Assembly (DRA) and enjoy so much over there. then i think durign the weekend even i attend the conference i shall able to finish it. worse part of all is that i didnt sleep also in during DRA, on saturday night i go clubbing with some friends. *swt swt swt*

haiz... but now is not the time to regret ad....!!! i shall conclude my blog and continue to write my "beloved" report.

*i am not crying and hugging my report after a enjoyable DRA*

Ps: not time to upload my picture. so i owe u guys my picture in my cousin wedding and also another album is DRA pictures.

6 Limitation In My Current Life

haiz.... sigh.....

1. another assignment due date is soon, so have to start doing it already.

2. DRA meetings to attended and talk to all the lan si president and ask them about their club attendance to DRA.

3. Finals in less than 1 month time and i am not ready. i am seriously not really. Especially computing notes got like tonnes of it....!!! God damn thick wei....!!!!! *sigh* *stress*

4. my aim for this finals is High Distinction so this make me think and stress about it day and night....!!!!

5. got no time for entertainment. some people just dun understand i dun hang out with them is not because i lan si or anything. is just that i do have my other group of friends that i always meet and have fun with. or sometime i seriously got no time after i have too much fun with my college mate go here and there. i feel guilty and so i need to study and rest at home k....!!! (not enough money also....!!!)

haiz...what ever la this people are just have too much of "time" and "life" to spend. say what ever you wan about me la... i lazy to comment and defence myself ad...

6. being a scholar is not easy... H.O.P. put stress on u, lecturers also, then need to do helper stuff that they asked. (cant reject but in the end if u do nth u will be question...!!! so sometimes must as well do it when you think "you think" u are free) there goes my time to study so have to sacrifice my fun and relax time...!!!