你到底爱对了人吗？？？ Is he the right one for me???

你发觉了吗?爱的感觉总是在一开始时甜蜜,总觉得多了一个人陪,多了一个人帮你分担,你终于不再孤单了,因为至少有一个人想着你、恋着你,只要能在一起就是好的。 但是慢慢地,随着认识的加深,你开始发现了对方的缺点,于是问题一个接一个出现,你开始烦、累,甚至想要逃避,有人说爱情就像捡石,总想捡到一个适合自己的,但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢?她适合你,那你又适合她吗? 其实,爱情应该像磨石子儿,或许刚捡到的时候,你不是那么满意,但是请记住,人是有弹性的,很多事情是可以改变的,只要你有心, 有勇气,与其到处去捡未知的石头,还不如将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨光,你开始磨了吗?

很多人以为,是因为感情淡了,人才会变得懒惰,其实人是先被惰性征服,感惰才慢慢变淡的。 在某个聚餐的场合,有人提议多吃点虾对身体好,这时候有个中年男人忽然说:“十年前,当我老婆还是我女朋友的时候,她说要吃十只虾,我就剥二十只给她。现在,如果她要我帮她剥虾壳,简直就是开玩笑,我连帮她夹菜都没兴趣了,还剥虾壳呢。”

难怪越来越多的人只想谈一辈子恋爱,却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。因为,婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。 如果每个人都懒得讲话,懒得倾听,懒得制造惊喜,懒得温柔体贴,那么夫妻之间,又怎么会不渐行渐远渐无声呢?所以请记住,有活力的爱情是需要适度殷勤来灌溉的,谈恋爱,更是不可以偷懒的。 有一对情侣,相约下班后去用餐,逛街,可是女孩因为公司会议延误了,当她冒雨赶到时候已经迟到了30多分钟,她男朋友很不高兴地说:“你每次都这样,现在我什么心情也没了,我以后再也不会等你了!”刹那间,女孩的心决堤崩溃了,她在想:或许,他们再也没有未来了。

同样,在同一个地点,另一对情侣也面临同样的处境,女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头,她的男朋友说:“我想你一定忙坏了吧?”接着他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水,并且脱去外套披在女孩身上,此刻,女孩流泪却是温馨幸福的。 你体会到了吗?

其实爱恨往往只在我们的一念之间!爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时,很多事可能只是在于你心境的转变罢了。如果有个人爱上你,而你也觉得他不错,那并不代表你会选择他。 我们总说:“我要找一个很爱很爱的人,才会谈恋爱。”但是当对方问你,怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候,你却无法回答他,因为你自己也不知道。

没错,我们总是以为,我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。可是后来,当我们猛然回首,才发觉自己曾经多么天真。假如从来没有开始,你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢?其实,很爱很爱的感觉,是要在一起经历了许多事情之后才会发现的。每个人都希望找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣,但是你有没有想过,在你身边早有人对你默默付出很久了,只是你没有发觉而已。

所以,还是仔细看看身边的人吧,他或许已经等你很久了。当你爱一个人的时候,爱到八分绝对刚刚好。所有的期待和希望都只有七八分,剩下两三分用来爱自己。如果你还继续爱得更多,很可能给对方造成沉重的压力,让彼此喘不过气来,完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。

所以请记住,喝酒不要超过六分醉,吃饭不要超过七分饱,爱一个人不要超过八分。如果你正在为爱迷惘,下面这段话或许可以给你一些启示:爱一个人,要了解也要开解;要道歉也要道谢;要认错也要改错;要体贴也要体谅;是接受而不是忍受;是宽容而不是纵容;是支持而不是支配;是慰问而不是质问;是倾诉而不是控诉;是难忘而不是遗忘;是彼此交流而不是凡事交代;是为对方默默祈求而不向对方诸多要求。

可以浪漫,但不要浪费,不要随便牵手,更不要随便放手

I copy this artical from one of my friends blog. what he say actually makes me think about lots of thing and some are quite true. so i decided to post it over here...
love can be a gift and can be a disaster too. it depends how you handle it and how both of you participate... like me till now still does not know what is the best and how to keep relation intersting...!!!
sometimes it may be my fault but sometimes even i try to make it interesting but the other party is not into it and find it is boring and refuse to try it wont works out eventually.
finding a right guy that able to click with u is more important than finding someone which are cute or handsome... I GUESS...?!

HELLO ^.^

(H)ow are you doing?
(E)verything alright?
(L)et me be with you?
(L)ove to see u soon.
(O)bviously i love you.

so meaningful right? like it?
so next time appreciate and give the person who say say to you a lovely smile and reply them too.

Sigh...my math lecturer *swt swt swt*

He own a very old model calculator, he will used it until it eventually spoil one day. In his class either classes starts early and end late or starts late and ends later. Best part of all is we will never get a chance to get any break in between (2hours) for any situation above.

“I need to hold you guys back because we started class late”, “guys I think you guys should pull up your shock”, “stop making so much of noise I couldn’t concentrate”, “keep it low people”, “behave like an adult if you wan me treat you like an adult”….etc. All the above is what he will copyright sentences.

Okay that is our very “loveable” math lecturer. He is so organized, systematic, tidy……anything that you can think of when you describing a MR. PERFECTIONISM…!!!! He will arrange all his fails and papers nicely on the desk before he starts and when he writes he uses colorful marker-pen and every single mistake he will erase nicely and write all over again. (I think my notes not as beautiful as all his notes that written on the board…?!)

Sometimes it maybe very annoying because he do his stuff in his very own sweet way which we find it is so sickening. Also I not really sure he knows how to differentiate what is important and what is not and which one he should emphasis and which is not.

For example, now, test and quiz is not going to carry any bonus or contribute any percentage for our external A Level exam which is 100% based on CIE marking. Why is he still giving us all this bull shit instead off some thing more practical which is go through all the past year question with us?! The most frustrating part is he is wasting his time by giving us his test cause we wont turn up for it and he still haven’t finish his teaching when our exam is in 1week time…!!!!

SIGH…I THINK NEED TO PRAY HARD FROM NOW TO SCORE MATH…!!!!

long long day in college (hate tuesday)

Okay I am supper tired now but I couldn’t just fall asleep as early like yesterday (8o’clock at night). Maybe got lots of thing running into my mind I guess.

Today I only had 4 hours of class (usually I have 6 hours non-stop from 10 to 4) but I reach college at around 8.30a.m. because follow dad to work and lazy to drive. So at first I plan to go library (like what I plan when I woke up at 6.10a.m.) but before that need to go to administration office to update my id so the next time I can renew my book online.

So as usual I go in alevel office disturb Ms. Rafiah and Mr. Sam then chat for while get some sweet for the day (there is a tin which always filled with all kind of flavor from mints to mango to coffee and more). Then I say left the office and go to the administration office and I search for my purse. GREAT…!!!! WHERE IS MY PURSE?! (all my id is inside even my basic kad pengenalan)

Okay I can forget my plan of going to the library and be a good student for once.
If u ask me why do I so desperately need to go to the library because exam is around the corner and if in alevel office I know won’t study cause I will eventually ends up in front of the com and in the end I did nothing other than nonsense.

Haiz…so like I said I sitting nicely in front of the com and started to send mail to all the friends that I made during my one week conference in Melaka after like 3 weeks and ask how are they and mainly is to try get the picture I took. (LOL…)

Then I played game with some of them which after class and hanging out at the psychology area (short description again, it is a small area which have nice table and chair and sofa, then is a open place for student to discuss work and play games and it is about 20 steps from alevel office door). Six of us played the game for like half an hour and frankly first time I play and I lost :’( hehe…never mind I will win next time ^.^

After game joint yokey and manda for lunch in the usual sick place (Asia café) then attended all my classes till 4o’clock in the evening but since I want to save money so I decided to wait for my mum till 6p.m. to fetch me since she is sending my sis to tuition which is near my college.

This time in the while waiting I did do some work and did not waste my time and also got some gossip from Jason about himself. (hope he is not sad after tell me all his story cause he looks like he is gonna cry next minute)
Anyway I am so tired now hopefully I can sleep after I finish blogging. *winky winky*

Unbelievable I Actually Did It

The night before Monday (Sunday), I wasn’t in good mood after message some people and finally settle some problem with him feel very down. Then I message derrick since he actually knows that the past few days I am moody and he did company me but I didn’t tell him what had happened and I promised to let him know once I settle.

He so nice and call me right after I send him the message even thought he is outside with his friends. Since is too noisy he hung up and calls me back after he back home. So I started to tell him all the things. (maybe there are still some parts which are more details I didn’t really want him to know so I keep it to myself)

On Monday, after my class we went for lunch but BEFORE LUNCH all thanks to him we had a great exercise by walking to his car and pay his parking ticket (is like from one end of ss15 to the other end of ss15). Lucky the place he intro they served nice and special food. It is salt baked chicken rice (yummy yummy…). It is some thing simple yet nice and that time I was so hungry cause I woke up 11.30a.m. for 12p.m. class and didn’t even eat my breakfast when already past the time for lunch.

After lunch, we had another great walking distance to his ex-college. Walk up two floors to the office to collect his certificate and back to other end of ss15 where we just now came from before to his car and lunch. (which is Asia and opposite my college…!!!!) *nice nice*

Then we hang out a while in Asia pool and out of three games I won only one game. Sad…sad…

Well… Thanks to him I did enjoy my blue blue Monday and also didn’t get to nap in return with all the walking exercise. No wonder I didn’t blog yesterday cause I fall asleep at around 8p.m. after finish talking to him on the phone. *yawn…*

Two more thing.
1) I actually so happy when finish class half an hour early because I am so so so hungry but I had to rush home past my sis house key. She called me half way during my class and said she forgotten to bring her house key.
2) While I was driving someone called so I saw is Ms. Linda name (economic lecturer) so I pick up. At first I thought can finish the conversation before I made a sharp turning but it didn’t and best part I almost drop my phone so I try so hard to make it stay near my ear with my elbow. On the other hand try to speak as loud as possible because Ms. Linda on the other side she can’t hear me properly and I am trying to focus on the left hand side’s car before I can cut in two or three lanes (not sure) to enter the parking area (ss14)…!!!!

Wah…does it sound like a drama or some thing…!!!! *UNBELIVABLE I DID IT*

STUPID QUESTIONS WITH THE SMART ANSWERS

BOY : May I hold your hand?
GIRL : No thanks, it isn't heavy.

GIRL : Say you love me! Say you love me!
BOY : You love me...

GIRL : If we become engaged will you give me a ring??
BOY : Sure, what's your phone number??

GIRL : I think the poorest people are the happiest.
BOY : Then marry me and we'll be the happiest couple

GIRL : Darling, I want to dance like this forever.
BOY : Don't you ever want to improve??

BOY : I love you and I could die for you!
GIRL : How soon??

BOY : I would go to the end of the world for you!
GIRL : Yes, but would you stay there??

earthquake people... OH IZZIT.....?!

okay, on Thursday morning as usual after i reach college i go into the alevel office and sit outside the room, using the com which cannot connected to Internet (the most sesat com in the whole college-so unlucky that is the only com available) and talking to Chris (he is standing and talking about rotaract stuff). then Sarah and zhivern is reading some blog, checking mail on the another two com.

suddenly 3 person rush out from the office and look at us wit a weird, surprise and full of question look....?! "do u guys feel the earthquake...?" (mr. sam our sporting head of programme) I replied "no, but i know i'm sleepy and dizzy since i wake up". (i always feel that when there are any earthquake happened to malaysia neighbour) chris say no and sarah say no also. but zhivern say "YES, i was looking at u guys but all of u look normal and still continue the talking and blogging. so i thought it was sarah shaking the com's table that's why it shake....but how come my chair is shaking too...?" she answer wit a miserable looking. LOL...all 7 of us jus laugh altogether after zhivern finish her sentence.

then Micheal and ziwei came in the alevel office, (jus a short description for alevel office is allocated at the lowest floor and that block only got another floor on top, the first office u will see other than marketing office and best place to hang out if u lazy to go out from college cause u experience the not office environment) i say hi and morning to them, then micheal say "the building is shaking (she was in room 310 3rd floor) so i run down". once again me, sarah and chris feel so lost and starts to wonder miserably... {y we feel nothing...?!}

i feel even more miserable is when mr sam finish his usual busybody activity. (he when out and ask anyone at the concourse did the feel it or not) he came in and his report is taylor college students is on the road and construstion side workers all ran down from the building and standing on the road.

woookie...i seriously didnt feel it... hahahahaha....
everyone dare not go back to class and we jus stay at alevel office till 9o'clock. then half went class and another half inculded me, sarah, angelyn decided to go for breakfast instead ^.^
(when my sis came back from school she told me that she feel it too. so i jus act stupid "oh ya i feel that too...")

EX's... *sigh*

After a 3 days of holiday (Friday is a self declare holiday ;P) and today back to college for classes. Actually sometimes kinda lazy wanna go for Monday class cause only 2hours but my statistic not to say very brilliant so…no choice have to go lo.. *sigh*

Well go back to college not really the thing I wanna talk about. Like my topic, I think today I can say is a “meet back my ex’s indirectly and directly day…!!!!”

Okay, one of my most recent ex is still in the same college wit me and same math class. I didn’t really see him today but when I company one of my friend to library one group of guys past by and one of them smell like him. All of sudden I miss him so much. Haiz…at that moment how would I wish can he is in front for me to hug... I thought I can forget him but now I guess not that easy (~.~) *another sigh*

Walk over the overhead bridge and go to my car and I see his car no more parking at the usual place, so I think he is back home already. Then while driving felt so lost even though that is the normal journey I been taking since god knows when…

Then finally reach the last traffic light before I reach my house but remember I had to buy wax for my hair so I change to the middle lane and stop at red traffic light. The look up, left and right and I saw a very familiar car plate . GREAT…another one…!!! Then past memories fly, fly, and fly inside my small little brain. “the car plate all will add up to 20 cause my mum believed that is the fung sui number”, “I like everything which is black”, “the way he rub his nose, comb his hair using his hair…”, “clean all his rubbish inside his car”, “complaining got nth to hug inside his car”….etc.

Then another ex I saw him while in the shop where I buy my wax. So coincident right people..?! *swt ~.~!!!* But this time less thing run into my mind because we weren’t together for long and that time was just secondary school only what people say about us and then how we together in the school during recess. But he is my first ex which also the one which I regret break up with him, he is so nice, caring and so sweet but that time so naïf and dunno how to appreciate.

Okay…hopefully next time dun arrange me meet all my ex in a day, but please let me meet my next or future boyfriend, CAN? ^.^

wat is my user name and password ar...?!

First of all I wanna say that I’m actually not so blur all the time but just sometime and on something…

Today my friend (already finish alevel) she came back to college to do settle some withdraw before she enters uni. So she is checking her blog and replying some stuff. It is actually like a chat box kinda stuff but I not really sure what is that. Then I open my blog then she gave me a stare and say “why so plain?” okay then she ask me to log in cause she wanna help make up my blog.

Hmmm…and here the story began. I gave her a smile and told her that I think I dun remember my user name and password. The she ask “how u log in?” Well basically I dun log out my blog after finish blogging. So, that’s why I not really sure what izzit.

So when come to blogger main page. After key in my user name and password, we both so quiet and just stare at the internet link. The moment my setting page appear then the two of us just break into laughter and say “that second my heartbeat jus stop for while” *hahaha* She starts to “makeup” my blog and add the chatter box there and teach me lots of thing.

Lol… After all what else can I say so I company her walk to block c (our library) to get the signature from the library management and “THANKS KALLI” ^.^
(Do anyone experiences something like me before? Sometimes thing which you always using it and the smallest detail and yet important thing will be the one thing that you forgot and dun remember?)

in the clinic

Today I went into the clinic, since is lunch hour so I had to wait for while for the doc to come back from lunch and is just half an hour and I’m so lazy to drive back again. So I register, then I sit there n wait.

While sitting on the yellow sofa, I start to look around. Then I saw “Doctor on Duty” then under those words there is a changeable kinda plate which written the doctor’s name which is on duty. Then I stare at the door which written consultation room and all the question one by one pop out from my brain.

Still remember when I was small I always imagine how the doctor looks like before the nurse call my name and go in and meet the doctor. Like izzit gonna be a man or a lady? Old or young? Izzit good looking? How his/her voice gonna be? Izzit gonna be the same doctor that I meet last time or someone new? All kind of question will run into my mind and keep wonder till I enter…

Got once I was so attracted to the lady doctor. I was so attracted to her, that is not because she is pretty or smell good or she gave me my favorite sweet or what so ever. Is because all the while most of the doctor I meet is a HE. So my impression the doctor I gonna meet after this a he and when I was waiting (as usual) I imagine how is he gonna look like, his shirt color and all will slowly combine into one.

But the moment I enter the consultation room, I saw a skinny, small size, not young yet old lady give me a smile and ask me “little gal wats wrong” and then she pat my head. She is like an angle to me, make me feel so proud that as a SHE also can be a doctor. I completely stone and through out the whole time I just look at her and she keep talking French to my mum (I was so small and that time I only understand Chinese, I only learn English when I first enter kindergarten) Haha...then since that day onwards I got another extra question “IS GONNA BE LADY OR MAN?”

cough cough cough.....

Since two weeks ago I have cough, flu, bad headache, sore throat and slight fewer but because I hate to eat medicine n the thing I dun like the most is ABTIBIOTIC I never take any medicine and of cause I didn’t go to the doc.

Then I went to a conference, held in Melaka, Malaysia for a week. As I committee and emcee I have to take care of myself and my beautiful voice so I bought a Fisherman Fresh lemon flavor. (Oh yeah...not forget to mention another tall, experience emcee actually give me one of his secret weapon-strepsils.)

So during the whole conference actually I get better by day, even though we didn’t really get enough sleep then next morning wake up early n been not eating on time. (Hmmm…maybe because of the music and all the whiskey…?!) ^.^ So I dun even care should go to a doc or not. (Will talk more about the conference when I’m free to type because I got lots of thing to talk about it)

Haha…I really enjoy the conference, get to meet lots of international friends like from Philippines (my first day roommate), Singapore, Korea, Japan, India…oh and not forget Taiwan (know lots of them cause I know how to speaks mandarin) *winky winky*

Ok come back to my topic. After I’m back form the conference I able to get back all the sleep hours that I have lost since the past one week, get to eat sleep shit and be a happy pig (my concept of life...yeah tats the way man..!!!) and most important still on holidays. But sadly my cough get worse and flu come back to hunt me… :'(

My mum keep nag and nag me to go see doc since Monday but I just ignore. On Wednesday I go clinic and buy cough medicine but my cough is not even under control. Until yesterday night I cough till I almost die because I couldn’t even breathe nicely (I have asthma when I was a kid) So finally, this noon I have to face my fear ANTIBIOTIC……!!!!!!

Ok la…now the only thing I can say is “GET WELL SOON K BABY STAR”.

y am i here????

my life is so boring tis day... go college, break time go baker if not asia for food, or will hang out in alevel office. when class finish then either i drive home or tumpang friend's car if not then the so call "big long car", bus.... or will go for a pool in asia b4 go home n sleep. *zzz.....*

do we really need a partner to keep us company n have more happening life? mayb once a while there is one or two guys which wanna go after u will msg or call u out for movie or mamak. mayb u will say where is all ur friends..well ppl if u are the only one which recently so happen to be so bad lucky drop in to the single status then u will get wat i mean. all friends going dating wit their beloved... even if they call u come along because they know u are sad due to break up, u wont wanna be the light bulb between the two couple right....

so in the end...friends which still single like me we will ends up going out for movie after class. then when wwe have lunch we will have all the recent gossip jus to keep us up to date.. ^.^!!! or go shopping together n laugh so loud till ppl surrounding us feel annoying but we say "who cares"..!!!! (*yeah*) after all the fun wit my single frineds, suddenly will feel tat being single is not really a big deal tot.. i still can enjoy life n have happy moment...

so the feel is like "sigh..i wish i had someone beside me now", sometimes is like "hey wat is the big deal man, no bf only ma..."
if now i am not looking for a serious relation i think i wont b so lonely here n decided to blog (b4 tis i find blogging is a waste of time) mayb now i'm at some where happy happy dating wit someone or flirting or ......

in the end, i am still so bored.....!!!!!!!